Playing Catch-up: Love's Birthday Photos, Gracie, My Ear, Etc.
I've got a lot of little updates to mention. Trying to bring a lot of random threads current.
Love's Birthday - So, I mentioned that we went to Magic Kingdom for his birthday last weekend. (His actual birthday is the 18th, but we went Saturday the 17th for convenience.) We also hit the Crystal Palace Buffet for lunch. Well, I finally got around to uploading the images into a little gallery.
Here we are with Tigger! Click here to see the rest.Gracie - Little Grace cat had what we assumed was a UTI and I took her to the vet Friday morning. Despite the lackluster performance by the vet, the antibiotics are thankfully helping. She's pretty much back to her normal, weird, peeping, hyper self. She's
hating the pill each day (big surprise, right?) but it's worth it since it's helping.
My Ear - So things aren't getting any better. This is day four of the weird distorted, vibration hearing in my right ear. On the recommendation of a pharmacist, I tried this Debrox ear wax remover thing on Saturday. Didn't help. I have to tell you, this is absolutely maddening. I can't tolerate the tv being on, music or hearing speech because something about voices is the worst. Ambient noises don't bother me, but even my own voice is unbearable. My left ear is fine but the right ear is so wrong. I honestly don't know how much more of it I can take and I don't know what I can do about it. I can't find anything about distorted hearing online either. Everything is hearing loss. But I can hear out of it, it's just not normal. And it doesn't hurt, but it does feel clogged or like it needs to "pop." And while the ear doesn't hurt, it does hurt to hear if that makes sense. The sound itself is almost painful. Like a nails-on-a-chalkboard kind of painful where it grates on you. For example, I went to the bead store today to pick up some items for an order and the woman said hello and I physically cringed because of the sound. And they had a radio playing and it just hurt to hear it.
At this point, I really think I need to get it checked out by a doctor. But without insurance, I literally don't have the money to pay for it. I don't even own a credit card to charge it and pay for it later. My only option would be something like the emergency room since you don't have to pay up front, but I don't know that they'd even see me or do anything. They'd probably refer me to a regular, general practitioner. I really don't know what to do at all.
Etc. On top of everything else, Love's got an emergency dental appointment this evening which is another stress. He's miserable, I'm miserable, and there's just no money for any of it. (As of this writing, I'm honestly not sure where the money is coming from for the appointment even. He's trying to get a small advance from his work to cover it but hasn't heard back yet.) I feel myself sinking into another deep, dark bout of depression again. The money problems are never ending, but because of them, we can never get ahead. We need a car so desperately I don't have words for it but we can't get a loan and I can't bring in more money with a part-time job unless I have a way to get to a job but I don't without a job to pay for a car. We're sinking in the quicksand and it's just one thing after another after another.... The more we struggle, the deeper we sink.
It's just a bad, bad time right now and I literally can't figure out a way to save ourselves. I roll it all around over and over in my mind and I can't come to any idea or solution.
We need help but there's no one to help us and nothing to do to make things better.
Down,
Down,
Down further we just keep sinking.
And I'm just so lonely and tired and scared of it all.
~ snow falls on
:: miss m ::
at 2/26/2007 02:37:00 PM ~
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