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There are people on the net that have nothing better to do with their time
then be nasty to other people online. They post rude comments, spend hours
a day talking about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a
day talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for their
opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone to fit into
their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw a temper tantrum.
To these people I say grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the web is
a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am, or what I
do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my hair, or
whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else. It's
really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and nasty
site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine. That
means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like it if I'm
bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go somewhere else.
Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too fucking bad, don't read
them. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot this simple fact: Live
and let live Don't like me, cool, fine, whatever, I don't care.
This journal is NOT for you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or
fame or anything stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and
express myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't,
it doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about it.
*gets off soapbox*
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Friday, June 23, 2006
Hu?
I just tried to load my journal and nothing happened. The index.html page is there so...let's hope publishing an entry will fix it. Otherwise, I'll be pissed.
~ from the beach near
:: miss m ::
at 6/23/2006 04:54:00 PM ~
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Minor Update
More a technical note then anything, I updated and formatted my manual archive today. It hadn't been updated since September of last year. Whoops. The automatic archive is always current, though a navigational disaster. So I made the manual archive in the hopes of making it a smidge easier to go back through old posts. It's really hard to organize no matter what when you're blog has been in near daily use since January 2001. Unfortunately, the 2001-3 entries are in a partial design from spring 2004 due to an overriding error, so it's not very pretty. It was part of a frameset but only the content frame is still there - not the one that made the rest of it look completed. I need to see if I can re-create the prior themes and make a gallery of old styles. I've been through quite a few over the years. So, not a real entry, just so much as a notation for any curious or those who enjoy persuing ancient history.
~ from the beach near
:: miss m ::
at 6/23/2006 03:10:00 PM ~
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
Summer Makeover
I actually missed Summer Soltice yesterday. *Whoosh* I went right past. So I'm working on my seasonal retheme of the blog. Still tinkering so if something looks weird, hang on just a sec. Seems to be working to me. Let me know if you have any issues.
~ from the beach near
:: miss m ::
at 6/22/2006 05:54:00 PM ~
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Quiet on the Homefront
I know I haven't really been updating this week. It's just been a bad week. Absurdly horrible fatigue issues and serious, tylenol-ain't-touching-it, who-stabbed-a-knife-in-my-back (and why-can't-someoneremove-it) chronic pain issues in my neck and right shoulder have sapped pretty much every ounce out of me this week. I don't know why it's been so bad but it really has. It's days like this that remind me just how serious my health can be when it's at it's worst. It also scares me into thinking more and more that it's all probably connected. That my fear of fibro probably isn't far off the mark. All the various issues and individual problems are classic textbook symptoms of the condition. Rather then being odd, random, issues on their own, it seems more and more likely that times like this are actually a "flare up" of the overlying problem and why I'm being hit with so much all at once. If it wasn't enough that I feel like shit, I somehow got a chip in my glasses about 10 days ago. It's dead center in the left lens. When you're blind like I am, even the tiniest of chips is MASSIVE and magnified in your vision as you look through the glass. I see it constantly. Constantly. And when I try to be on the computer or watch tv, the brightness of the backlightning makes it even more obvious. It's driving me absolutely insane. Since I need a new prescription anyway - it's been a little over two years since I got these - I definitely can't afford to get this pair fixed AND get a new pair. But I can't get an eye exam and new pairs (I need sunglasses and regular glasses since this is Florida and I already have cataracts. No. *sighs* Really. Yes you can get them in your 20's though - lucky me - it's really rare.) Last time, it was around $350 for exam and both pairs. And that was with an amazing deal because I know someone who works at a glasses store. It would have been around $800 retail for the two pairs. (Talk about mark-up, hu?) The lens for my regular glasses alone are around $130 EACH. Anyway, needless to say, I don't have a few hundred dollars right now. I'm scheduled to temp on Friday and possibly either next Friday or the one after, so I'll put that in the eye glass fund, but it's still going to be less then half of what I need. (Two days at the temp job is $160.) I just don't know how long I can deal with this damned chip. Anyone who wears glasses will understand how headache-inducing it can be. I'm so careful with them and I wear them every waking moment, but somehow...chip. So it's a bad week. And I'm frustrated and broke and not feeling well and needing to expidite my too-weak prescription process sooner rather then later. All easier said then done. So anyone who might have been thinking about ordering a necklace, or bracelet or earrings or rune set, I'd appreciate it if perhaps now was the time you put in an order. PhoenixFireDesigns.com Every little bit will help. Alright, I guess I should head out. I really should have tried to go to bed earlier tonight to try to get ready for Friday's WAY early wake-up call, but like everything else, my sleep schedule's been fritzy this week. Ta for now.
~ from the beach near
:: miss m ::
at 6/22/2006 01:38:00 AM ~
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Monday, June 19, 2006
Fatigue
My fatigue has been horrible recently. Normally, I go through cycles; sometimes very achey and fatigued, and other times very tolerable. It's been good lately but now... ugh, it's awful. Yesterday I wanted to cry I felt so bad. My whole body hurt like it does when you've had the flu for two weeks, I was so tired I felt like I was passing out, and I was dizzy and unable to focus. We had to go to Love's parents - an hour drive away - for Father's Day (a day I hate, though I try not to let it show when we see Love's dad because he's really a sweetheart. It just doesn't change the fact I wish I could burn the day off the calendar forever) and it was more then I could handle. I got home and felt so sick, that even though I was starving, I couldn't eat. I was just exhausted and miserable. I felt so wrong. Today, I couldn't get out of bed. And here it's 3pm and I need to take a shower, but it feels like asking me to climb Everest. So impossible, I want to cry. I don't know why it's so bad all of a sudden. Maybe it has to do with my cycle this week...? I don't know. I just know it's bad. Worse then it's been in a long time. I got a call from K. today. She asked if I could come in and cover for them on Friday. I agreed of course but it still stings to cover for your own replacement. It'll be $80 though and I can desperately use the cash. I've been pimping out my runes and had a TON of positive feedback and people talking about ordering a set...and then not a single one sold yet. *sighs* I was hoping to sell a couple sets to give me money for food/gas this week. Looks like that's not happening. Anyway, I need to shower. If I don't try to do it now I won't manage at all. And I feel scuzzy and gross and really want a shower. Just a bad start to the week. Oh! And poor Love is really sick. He missed Thursday AND Friday from work because he's been sick (throwing up and such.) Felt better Saturday, worse again yesterday and is at work today trying to get an appointment with the doctor. Something's really wrong. We don't have any idea what since if it was a stomach flu, it (a) should be better by now and (b) I should have gotten it. Food poisioning wouldn't last this long. So he's sick, I'm in a horrible spoonless state right now and we're broke. Fun times.
~ from the beach near
:: miss m ::
at 6/19/2006 02:58:00 PM ~
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