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There are people on the net that have nothing better to do with their time
then be nasty to other people online. They post rude comments, spend hours
a day talking about sites they hate so much, that they well, spend hours a
day talking about them. (lame) They mock the owners and posters for their
opinions and their right to free speech. They expect everyone to fit into
their narrow-minded little world view or else they throw a temper tantrum.
To these people I say grow up.
Here's a bit of info people...the web is
a HUGE place. If you don't like what I say here, or who I am, or what I
do, or talk about, or what I look like, or the color of my hair, or
whatever asinine thing you dwell on, go somewhere else. It's
really, really easy. Honest. You just click the little "x" in
the corner of your browser and *poof* the offending, big, mean and nasty
site has disappeared.
I pay for this site. It's mine. That
means I can use it for whatever the hell I want to. Don't like it if I'm
bitching about something in my life? Oh fucking well. Go somewhere else.
Think I'm stupid for expressing my thoughts? Too fucking bad, don't read
them. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot this simple fact: Live
and let live Don't like me, cool, fine, whatever, I don't care.
This journal is NOT for you. It's for me. I'm not in it for popularity or
fame or anything stupid like that. I write it because I need to write and
express myself and get things out of my head sometimes. So read or don't,
it doesn't matter, but don't waste my time (or yours) bitching about it.
*gets off soapbox*
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Friday, February 10, 2006
Random TV Observations
Project Runway: Flaming gay guy designs for other gay guy and gets kicked off because the suit he made is "too feminine." Um...hello? That was kind of the point. Meanwhile, annoying-as-fuck Santino makes this horrific Jetson's jumpsuit that's taped on and falling apart on the runway and gets to stay. It's like the idiotic winner Jay from last season all over again. A Baby Story: Why in the world do I want to watch women giving birth on tv? E-fucking-gods, it's NEVER something I want to flip through and see. Jeez. Is anyone really that nosey that they want to be in the delivery room of a stranger on tv? Gross. Fear Factor: Yes, yes, we know already. Puree monkey brain smoothie with cockroach anus topping. It was stupid and retarded the first time we saw it. How many more times - and seasons - do you plan on beating that dead horse? And do we really need it in rerun syndication? Dancing With the Stars/Skating With Celebrities: Is anyone actually interested in seeing third- and fourth-rate actors making idiots of themselves and trying desperately to garner another paycheck and stay in the pulic eye? Isn't that what Surreal Life is for? There are just so many lame, bad, and utterly pointless shows on tv. This is just the tip of the iceburg. There are so many that you see on the schedule or in the guide and you wonder how it ever got made - and why. Which ones make you scratch your head and ask, "why did someone spend money to make that?"
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Taking Care of Love
Well, Love woke up this morning and realized what I had said all along. To wit, it was far too soon to go back into work today. Having woken up, realized he was still in a lot of pain, can't eat solid food for another day or two, and that his face was still quite swollen finally clued him in that a full day at work just wasn't going to happen. He is, however, doing a lot better after more rest and babying today and is planning on heading back tomorrow. No real choice at this point. I'm glad he took today to rest up more but jeez...we're going to be three days (!!) short on pay from this. He doesn't have any sick time, just vacation time and I don't know if they'll let him take it. They normally won't let you, but this was a medical emergency type thing so who knows if they'll make an execption. If they don't...*sighs* His birthday is the 18th and if we're that short, I won't be able to do anything for him for the day. Didn't do a lot today. Thought I ran to the post office to mail out my swap and hit the supermarket to get him some more soft foods and beverages. Poor thing keeps getting all moppy when I eat solid food and he's stuck with soup and pudding. Heh. Though he did enjoy his soup today and I even let him have some Mac 'n' Cheese on the promise he'd not chew it, just swallow it. He was quite happy to be full for once. ;) Anyway, that's about all from here. Just kinda been hanging out and taking care of Love. He's doing a lot better which is good since it's my turn next on Monday. (Three fillings.) Not as bad as him, but still no fun whatsoever and still will be exhausting and painful. Alrighty, I'm going to get a snack and might take a shower. Never got to that today and I feel grungy. Might help me wind down a bit and get some sleep tonight. Slept last night but it was really broken (was woken up many, many times from noise to phone ringing, etc.) and full of weird and disturbing dreams. Tomorrow I'll get to sleep in some more since he'll be at work, so hopefully, I can catch up a bit. Hope everyone's doing well.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Hard Day
Poor Love had a 9am emergency appointment with the dentist. He missed work yesterday due to massive pain but couldn't get in anywhere then, so had to wait until this morning. He had to have some really painful work done so I've been up since early this morning, trying to take care of him and keep him as comfy as possible. We got him the meds, the antibiotic and a bunch of soft stuff since he can't chew for a few days. Poor guy kinda needs to go in tomorrow because it'll be day three off (3 days missed is instant termination without doctor's orders) but I told him I'm sure the dentist would fax over something confirming his need to rest and take care of his mouth. He's got a lot of specific after-care for tomorrow and med schedule and I'm worried that combined with not being able to eat, it's going to be too much for him. He says he'll play it by ear when he gets up. So it's been a hard, stressful day. I'm exhausted and just mentally drained. I don't mind taking care of him of course, but it's still not the easiest thing to do. Beat. I think I'm going to wrap up a few things and hit the sack myself. On top of the early start, I only slept around 4.5 hours last night and all of it tossing and turning. It's just a bad time for our household when it comes to dental issues. Warm thoughts, positive energy (for both of us; I face three fillings Monday) is greatly appreciated. Night.
Monday, February 06, 2006
Good Day
So the dentist went well. They just had to put the perm crown on the tooth and it went smoothly and painlessly. It also took very little time. So it's there and it feels weird. But not weird in a bad way, just different. The temp crown was very small. It was actually shorter then the tooth next to it. There's not a whole lot of original tooth left by the time it was drilled for the filling, then drilled for the root canal. So the temp crown was really little. In fact, I wasn't allowed to eat off of it since it was kind of precariously held on. Now, well, the full crown is on there and I have a real bit again. I can feel it connect with my bottom teeth when I close my teeth together. Which, in turn, actually feels a little weird. You get used to something so when it's back to "normal" well, it feels off. And since it's been two months since I started this root canal process, that tooth's been out of sync the whole time. I'm sure in a few days I'll adjust to it being normal again, but in the meantime, wow does it feel weird! Next Monday sees me back for my remaining cavities. I'm going to try to endure and do all three. Two bottom, one top on the right side. I just want it to be over with. And one of the teeth - furthest back on the bottom, right-hand side - is really worrying me. You can see the black from the cavity now and it's got me absolutely paranoid. There's no way I can go through another root canal so gods, I hope and pray that it is still small enough that it's not gotten into the nerve and that it can still be salvaged with just a filling. Your energy, thoughts, prayers, and well-wishings are greatly appreciated. Once I get these three done, I'm done with my dental work. I can't tell you what a trying year it's been getting this all done and paid for and going through the pain and hardship of it all. The good side of things is after the dentist, my mom and I went to the mall. She got us a super nice toaster oven. I've been needing one for awhile now. Our little toaster is awful. It's small, it burns everything and I'm always afraid it's going to spontaneously catch on fire. I've wanted to replace it with a toaster oven so I can both cook and toast in it (including the ability to toast bagels! oh joy of joys!) but I can use it when I work with my clay. Instead of heating up the big oven and spending a lot of electricity on it, I can just use the toaster oven. Mom said it's Love's birthday gift. Heh. (His birthday is fast approaching on the 18th) He smirked because it was something I wanted moreso then he did but it's a household item and we needed on anyway. So I'm excited. My mom also got me a new pillow since mine had lost all of it's fluff. I've been dealing with horrific neck pain lately - worse then normal - and it's even been giving me migraines. So we'll see if it helps. Damned neck. (You guys do know my neck is permantely damaged right? It grew wrong as a result of being literally dragged into the world. I was supposed to be a C-section but my mom's dr didn't believe in them. Anyway, years later, as I was around 13 or so, they took me to different doctors because I was having servere pain in my neck. Turns out that they did damage to it and it grew improperly because of it. Meaning my neck hurts me every single day of my life. It's permantely out of alignment. It would have been a malpractice suit for sure if we had known earlier. By the time we discovered it, we were well past the statue of limitation to file. It might actually qualify me for a disability, but I've never had insurance to pursue that avenue.) Anyway, I'm hoping I might get some relief in the next few nights if it'll settle back down. What I need is a weekly massage program to keep it loose but again, at like $50-70 a session, that's no where near in my budget. So...that's today in a nutshell. Not a bad day for a dentist day after all.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Final Score: Bolts 5, Caps 0
It was a really good - and fun! - game last night. Lightning scored their first goal 11 seconds into the game.  We also had a short-handed goal and two powerplay goals to keep the night interesting. Boy, it was a lot of fun. I love going to games because you can really get into it. The clapping and cheering and everything. Makes it really interactive. And of course, when you're there, at the game, the time just flies by. Had a really good time. It's the second game I've gotten to see this season in person. And nothing tops good seats at a hockey game for free, ya know? It was definitely a more fun Saturday then I thought it was going to be when I got up yesterday!  Tomorrow on the other hand, is the dentist. But only for the perm crown on the root canal tooth. So it shouldn't be too bad. It should be quick and mostly pain-free. Unlike the first crown I had done, I know it won't hurt because I don't have any nerves in it. The first one I did hurt horribly when they took the temp crown off. The air was like knives. They had to numb me up. This one, well, I know I won't have that problem since I don't have any nerves in it to be sensitive in the first place! Heh. Hopefully, all will go well. Then I can make my appointment to get my remaining cavities filled and be done with this all. (Well, short of still paying the $385 I'm in debt to the endodontic dentist.) Still though, we're going on a year of all of this, so let me tell you, I can't wait for it to be done. Alright, I think today's a lazy Sunday but I guess I still should eventually make an attempt to get dressed. And maybe have some breakfast. (Yes at 2pm. What's it to ya?) TTFN.
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