me(12:35:17 AM): gods I'm out of it tonight.
chris (12:35:22 AM): why for?
me (12:35:25 AM): I hate when I'm out of sync...
me(12:35:27 AM): no clue
me(12:35:40 AM): just not quite "fitting" in reality this evening
me(12:35:57 AM): happens sometimes. no idea why and no idea how to make it ok. just rights itself eventually.
me(12:36:05 AM): sometimes a couple hours sometimes a day or so
chris(12:36:57 AM): I know I'm bleeding off excess energy
me(12:38:52 AM): I was sitting there watching highlander (the immortal edition on dvd) and i was so fidgety and buzzy/tingly and couldn't figure out what was wrong adn then I realized. ugh. I'm out of sync. I don't know any other way to describe it. its like I'm moving just a bit faster or a bit slower then the rest of reality. or I'm moving and it's still
me(12:38:59 AM): its an agravating feeling
chris(12:39:32 AM): I can imagine
chris(12:39:39 AM): i'm always running faster or slower
chris(12:39:41 AM): never dead on
me(12:40:22 AM): i tend to mesh ok for the most part but times like this it's glaring. ugh. and just....uncomfortable
chris(12:40:37 AM): like a caffine buzz?
me(12:41:40 AM): eh...sorta. like a caffine buzz while coming off a boat all day where you stil feel like you're moving plus a sorta skin-crawling feeling and a weird tingle in your hands and such like ants under your skin all in one
chris(12:42:08 AM): ah ok
chris(12:42:13 AM): not like what I'm feeling then
chris(12:42:14 AM): lol
me(12:42:17 AM): lol
me(12:42:35 AM): (and you think you're the only crazy one here)
chris(12:42:49 AM): oh no, I know you're a nutcase
chris(12:42:50 AM): :-D
~ flowers bloom near Memory and Dream
at 5/19/2002 12:52:11 AM ~
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